Blog 1

My two selves

            The public and private self: two sides that differ from each other on so many levels. They complement each other but also have too many ways to determine who I am. It can be difficult to distinguish what is my private self as opposed to what my public self is. To me I believe it really just depends on my comfort zone. I can act one way in one place and I can act a different way somewhere else.

One quality of my public self is me being quiet when I'm not in my comfort zone. I try to be as respectful as I can and not pass any boundaries that would be unacceptable. I act like my quiet self when I am in class or in the workplace. However, in contrast to my quiet trait, I am a very loud person when I am my private self. I show my private self in a number of places. It varies from being at parks, or in school hallways but it is always when I'm with my friends. I am very social and talkative person when I am my private self.

            Another public self-quality is that I find myself boring and socially awkward. I try my best to make a conversation when I am uncomfortable but it usually falls flat. I don’t see this quality of myself to be an enjoyable person. In contrast, I love making jokes when I am my private self. I can do several voice impressions and I love making people laugh. It seems to be one of my finer qualities of my private self. I don’t see how this would be a bad thing in any way.

My final example of difference between my public and my private self is the way that I am quite lazy and sluggish when I'm my public self. I am not sure what the reason for that is. It could be the possible fact that I don’t have a desire to do much. Especially since I am alone. Therefore, my private self is the absolute opposite. I love to be active with my friends. I play sports (even though I am terrible at them) and I just have fun. I am more motivated as well ass enthusiastic about many things. I feel that is my best private self-quality.

            I feel that in the matter of me being my public and private self, it all depends on my comfort zone. I need to be as comfortable as I can be in order to have me being my private self. I let several people see my private self because it is the way I am. I believe that it isn’t that bad of a problem. And I feel that I can go far expressing myself the way that I have been for so long.